Odious and Asinine

I love the assurance of the sunrise, the sunset that makes it hide
I love the warmth it brings me, but happy when the heat goes inside

I love watching rain,hearing thunder,and seeing the lightning glow
I love being inside where I can be warm and change out of all my wet clothes

I love having you beside me always, trusting it will never change
I love you to see you running away happy, my norm once again rearranged

I love the days when I'm happy, try to forget the ones when I'm sad
I love you so much on your good days and I'll be right beside you when they're bad

I love when friends surround me and make me feel like life is grand
I love being assured that you need me, like when you take hold of my hand

But I hate when I feel like it's always dark and the sun won't ever shine again
And when the thunder shocks me and the rain has soaked through to my skin

I hate feeling like you used me and feeling that I'll never truly trust
And I hate you for leaving me alone as I curse your wanderlust

I hate when I feel like I'm friendless and no one truly understands who I am
And knowing that I'm being judged by my skeletons and haunted by my own engrams

I hate yet love when you call me and want me to always be there for you
I hate when I really need someone, that you always have better things to do

I hate how you leave me feeling low and when my thoughts spin out of control
And I hate when I never realize that I'm bleeding from your bullet holes

I truly love some things that are broken and I know some just aren't worth fighting for
I hate some doors that were opened and some friends that left me lying scarred on the floor

I love feeling like I can beat all this and that nothing will bring me down
I hate feeling like that's just a line that I use when pain once again comes around

-ABH-