Tommy

OK, it's official. Everything bad seems to happen in the winter months. Our family's best friend (1 of the triad of the spectacular, love them so much, don't know what we'd do without them, best friends in the world, Spencer bunch) had a heart attack this morning. A heart attack..... It absolutely does not feel real. I wish it wasn't. He's doing "good" now. The doctor put two stints in his artery and he has to stay in the hospital for a couple more days. I just hate things like this because I start to imagine my world without them. My mind replays the most recent memories and then starts going back further, straining to remember everything. I think of how I would feel, how his family would cope, what life would be like, how much things would change. I often do this with people I love, and every time, I get the most horrible dreadful nausea in my stomach. I can't stand to think of what it would be like without him. I love him so much. I guess it goes back to giving every bit of you that you can to the people you love while you still have them, because life is so uncertain. Makes me want to contact all my great friends and family and tell them just how much I really do love them.... sigh.....