Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Cannonball

As you struggle to fit the mold that she's created, I burn away in the back struggling to find something to hate

And I know that I'm better than anyone's second place prize, that gets me nothing but a ribbon and pitied glances from the side

I wait and try to say that I'm ok, that I'm here and I'm just your friend. But that's a lie that you know is a lie but you continue to pretend

I shouldn't have to convince you that you want to be with me. So just go on, take her, live your life, be free

After all that we have been through, no we can't be friends if you're with her. You flow through my veins, your name's etched in my heart, can't go back to before you were

All I want is to love you and that's the last thing on her mind, a convenience, a comfort, a useful thing, a boost to her inflated pride

It drops my heart to hear you speak her name, but even worse is how much I love all of the man she's struggling to change

You're still chasing her, I'm still waiting at the starting line. It's not fair to be in a race I can't run, it's getting dark and you're just burning time

These are secrets I'm tired of being told. The same story, the confusion is starting to get so old
-ABH-

1 comment:

  1. i said i had no words but i was wrong
    the words came after the tears
    they roll around the spiral rims in my mind with my dreams and my fears

    why did you come here? why did you smile?
    i know you brought the rain
    i know you mixed it with sun
    i know you made it storm and planned to kiss me under the window
    i know you are just like me and i know your passing pain

    please make this easier, please understand
    i didn't expect you
    so what do i do with that?
    i didn't expect you
    so what do i do now?
    tell me and ill kiss your hand
    tell me and ill kiss your palm and left eyelid
    ill drink the water from your kiss
    if you'll just give me this

    you weren't supposed to be beautiful
    im changed by you
    ill never be the same
    my soft brain and lonely empty eyes
    are stuck in the air in an upward swing

    this may make little sense to you
    but try to grasp my profound sadness and this desperate thing

    im about to fall from up there

    i dont expect you to watch
    but id like you to care

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