Tumultous Ambivelance

Precious love, I dearly hate you
Precious love, you're done wrecking my head
Precious love too long I've let you
Fool me with the sweet words you've said

Dear friend I truly despise her
Dear friend have fun being played
Dear friend I hope you enjoy her
Once she's done playing games with your head

This girl loves to play the fiddle
This girl who must steal the show
Dear girl I'm tired of the middle
Take your treat, wag your tail, and just go

Dear love I'm sick of your false confessions
Dear love I forfeit your game
Dear love, your false words disgust me
I'm done with you find a new pliable aim

Sweet words you mean nothing to me
Sweet words you're dust in the wind
Sweet words you're the best taste in my mouth
Until I realize you're nothing but air again

Delicious kiss you're the ultimate fraud
Delicious kiss I wish I could forget your taste
Delicious kiss my mouth must forget you
For all your passion was a waste

Divine memories please leave me
Divine memories float out of my head
Divine memories, please God help me
Make up some bad ones of you instead

Dear "us" you're especially hurtful
Dear "us" can't believe you had the gall
Dear "us" I refuse to walk toward you
For you just like to laugh when I fall

Evil end I knew we'd be reunited
Evil end I thought I'd let you go
Evil end I truly hate you
Just thought you might like to know
-ABH-

Who Needs Rescuing?

Stuck in misery's purgatory I sludge through these days not knowing what to feel
Up but mostly down, sometimes happy but mostly sad, torn over which is real

A snail's pace of moving on but staying put and trying to decide which half of the fork to travel
Keeping my sanity perfectly intact as the ends are lost, it steadily frays and unravels

Missing your face but trying to force it out of my head.. yet make it stay
Wanting to do nothing but run to you yet trying to crawl any other way

Being forced to keep remembering the day we met, my yellow sweater, "hey you"
Hearing your voice, touching your skin, "you're not so tall", getting drunk off all the new

I can't escape you even at night when I lay on my right side to not feel my heart pound
I scream and cry, my blood pounds my head to wake me from my dream's awful sounds
-ABH-

By Your Window

So no, you didn't expect me
The sun, the rain, or the storm
Well, I never anticipated feeling each of those in your arms

Maybe I came when I did just to make you smile
or to deflect some of your pain
Or maybe what happens every moment we're together
is as unexplainable and rare as the sun beaming down through the rain

I don't know what to tell you to do now
I can't explain how this got so swiftly so deep
This isn't like me
But I've been besotted by you by day
and by night you permeate my sleep

So I don't know what to make of your words
It wasn't my intention to make you decide
I'm so sorry that I can't keep my patience intact
and suppress all these feelings inside

So to say that I'm changed by you as well
and that I'll never be the same isn't enough
You've torrefied my soul my love
I've given up fighting the flames
-ABH-

Cannonball

As you struggle to fit the mold that she's created, I burn away in the back struggling to find something to hate

And I know that I'm better than anyone's second place prize, that gets me nothing but a ribbon and pitied glances from the side

I wait and try to say that I'm ok, that I'm here and I'm just your friend. But that's a lie that you know is a lie but you continue to pretend

I shouldn't have to convince you that you want to be with me. So just go on, take her, live your life, be free

After all that we have been through, no we can't be friends if you're with her. You flow through my veins, your name's etched in my heart, can't go back to before you were

All I want is to love you and that's the last thing on her mind, a convenience, a comfort, a useful thing, a boost to her inflated pride

It drops my heart to hear you speak her name, but even worse is how much I love all of the man she's struggling to change

You're still chasing her, I'm still waiting at the starting line. It's not fair to be in a race I can't run, it's getting dark and you're just burning time

These are secrets I'm tired of being told. The same story, the confusion is starting to get so old
-ABH-

Beautiful Dreamer

When the dark starts to chill you and your thoughts make you feel alone

I’ll put sunshine in my fingers ‘til the beams glow from your bones

I'll bring you the morning sun when you think you can’t stand the night

And try to keep my voice steady when I promise you that "it's fine, I'm alright”

You may not know the value of the diamonds I place at your feet

But I will hold you when you’re crying until their dust dances down your street

I’ll lasso the moon and force it to smile down on your tired and lonely head

And wrap my hand 'round your sweet face when you’re drowsy in your bed

If ivy is all that's growing around you when orchid and iris make your heart pound

Then I'll sprinkle seeds, plant bulbs, and weave color so you'll always have beauty around

So when this confusion shakes my deepest core just curl me all up in you

I’ll pick you a million daisies when my pounding heart is through

-ABH-

I Can't Find Sleep

I used to write
I used to write letters, I used to sign my name
I used to sleep at night
Before the flashing light settled deep in my brain

But by the time we met, by the time we met
The times had already changed
So I never wrote a letter
I never took my true heart, I never wrote it down
So when the lights cut out
I was lost standing in the wilderness downtown

Now our lives are changing fast
Now our lives are changing fast
Hope that something pure can last
Hope that something pure can last

It may seem strange
How we used to wait for letters to arrive
But what's stranger still
Is how something so small can keep you alive

We used to wait
We used to waste hours just walking around
We used to wait
All those wasted lives in the wilderness downtown

We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait

Sometimes it never came
Sometimes it never came
Still moving through the pain

I'm gonna write a letter to my true love
I'm gonna sign my name
Like a patient on a table
I wanna walk again, gonna move through the pain

Now our lives are changing fast
Now our lives are changing fast
Hope that something pure can last
Hope that something pure can last

We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait

Sometimes it never came
Sometimes it never came
Still moving through the pain

We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait

We used to wait for it
We used to wait for it
And now they're screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"

We used to wait for it
We used to wait for it
And now we're screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"

I used to wait for it
I used to wait for it
Hear my voice screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"

Wait for it!
Wait for it!
Wait for it!
-ARCADE FIRE-

Damien Rice - Grey room (unofficial)