As you struggle to fit the mold that she's created, I burn away in the back struggling to find something to hate
And I know that I'm better than anyone's second place prize, that gets me nothing but a ribbon and pitied glances from the side
I wait and try to say that I'm ok, that I'm here and I'm just your friend. But that's a lie that you know is a lie but you continue to pretend
I shouldn't have to convince you that you want to be with me. So just go on, take her, live your life, be free
After all that we have been through, no we can't be friends if you're with her. You flow through my veins, your name's etched in my heart, can't go back to before you were
All I want is to love you and that's the last thing on her mind, a convenience, a comfort, a useful thing, a boost to her inflated pride
It drops my heart to hear you speak her name, but even worse is how much I love all of the man she's struggling to change
You're still chasing her, I'm still waiting at the starting line. It's not fair to be in a race I can't run, it's getting dark and you're just burning time
These are secrets I'm tired of being told. The same story, the confusion is starting to get so old
-ABH-
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Monday, June 6, 2011
Beautiful Dreamer
When the dark starts to chill you and your thoughts make you feel alone
I’ll put sunshine in my fingers ‘til the beams glow from your bones
I'll bring you the morning sun when you think you can’t stand the night
And try to keep my voice steady when I promise you that "it's fine, I'm alright”
You may not know the value of the diamonds I place at your feet
But I will hold you when you’re crying until their dust dances down your street
I’ll lasso the moon and force it to smile down on your tired and lonely head
And wrap my hand 'round your sweet face when you’re drowsy in your bed
If ivy is all that's growing around you when orchid and iris make your heart pound
Then I'll sprinkle seeds, plant bulbs, and weave color so you'll always have beauty around
So when this confusion shakes my deepest core just curl me all up in you
I’ll pick you a million daisies when my pounding heart is through
-ABH-
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
I Can't Find Sleep
I used to write
I used to write letters, I used to sign my name
I used to sleep at night
Before the flashing light settled deep in my brain
But by the time we met, by the time we met
The times had already changed
So I never wrote a letter
I never took my true heart, I never wrote it down
So when the lights cut out
I was lost standing in the wilderness downtown
Now our lives are changing fast
Now our lives are changing fast
Hope that something pure can last
Hope that something pure can last
It may seem strange
How we used to wait for letters to arrive
But what's stranger still
Is how something so small can keep you alive
We used to wait
We used to waste hours just walking around
We used to wait
All those wasted lives in the wilderness downtown
We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait
Sometimes it never came
Sometimes it never came
Still moving through the pain
I'm gonna write a letter to my true love
I'm gonna sign my name
Like a patient on a table
I wanna walk again, gonna move through the pain
Now our lives are changing fast
Now our lives are changing fast
Hope that something pure can last
Hope that something pure can last
We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait
Sometimes it never came
Sometimes it never came
Still moving through the pain
We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait for it
We used to wait for it
And now they're screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"
We used to wait for it
We used to wait for it
And now we're screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"
I used to wait for it
I used to wait for it
Hear my voice screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"
Wait for it!
Wait for it!
Wait for it!
-ARCADE FIRE-
I used to write letters, I used to sign my name
I used to sleep at night
Before the flashing light settled deep in my brain
But by the time we met, by the time we met
The times had already changed
So I never wrote a letter
I never took my true heart, I never wrote it down
So when the lights cut out
I was lost standing in the wilderness downtown
Now our lives are changing fast
Now our lives are changing fast
Hope that something pure can last
Hope that something pure can last
It may seem strange
How we used to wait for letters to arrive
But what's stranger still
Is how something so small can keep you alive
We used to wait
We used to waste hours just walking around
We used to wait
All those wasted lives in the wilderness downtown
We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait
Sometimes it never came
Sometimes it never came
Still moving through the pain
I'm gonna write a letter to my true love
I'm gonna sign my name
Like a patient on a table
I wanna walk again, gonna move through the pain
Now our lives are changing fast
Now our lives are changing fast
Hope that something pure can last
Hope that something pure can last
We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait
Sometimes it never came
Sometimes it never came
Still moving through the pain
We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait
We used to wait for it
We used to wait for it
And now they're screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"
We used to wait for it
We used to wait for it
And now we're screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"
I used to wait for it
I used to wait for it
Hear my voice screaming:"Sing the chorus again!"
Wait for it!
Wait for it!
Wait for it!
-ARCADE FIRE-
Monday, May 16, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Texties That Make Me :)
Hi it's Ross. Just wanted to let you know we missed you on Sunday! Jul 12, 2010
Too funny was just makin fun of those commercials. Forgot the two for price of one! :) Jul 17, 2010
Filled with anger right now Jul 19, 2010
Good Lord. You are busier than a one legged man in a butt kicking contest. Jul 21, 2010
Ahh...poor bee..now its gonna die...:) on a serious note that particular bee deserves to die...did u get the stinger out? Jul 24, 2010
Wana hike Thursday around 3? Hike to lake, jump in lake? Aug 2,2010
Know the feeling when i try to change channels with telephone. I don't have crazy schedule to blame..:P don't respond to this text..:)..:)
I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aug 3, 2010
Dude, there is the craziest delay. Let us know what u all want to do. Luv to see u saucy gals. Aug 4, 2010
Still comin' up tomorrow? Aug 5, 2010
Poor baby. You will make it. Just breathe and read some trashy material. Did I mention Cory is a gay hooker? Aug 5, 2010
Really cuz I just squeezed a little brown one in my pants Aug 6, 2010
My 2 precious girls Aug 7, 2010
We just went over a big dam reservoir Aug 8, 2010
My butt typed most of that Aug 12, 2010
I hate tunder! Oh noooo. Isth terrifying. Aug 13, 2010
I'm going to climb your anger wall one day and it will be glorious! Aug 14, 2010
Mmm...fizzy skittles...That's ur new nickname by the way :-)
1. Cuz ur spunky & fruity 2. u know ur a success whn u share names w/a candy! Aug 16, 2010
Be calm and have a cupcake. Aug 17, 2010
I need tissue Aug 18, 2010
Haha. Bad cat. But how will I claw your boobies big breasted lady? - DJ
I'm so depressed. First my nuts, now dis Aug 19, 2010
That melon is delicious! You should get you a big juicy slice! Aug 22, 2010
O calm down and get over it! Hehe
Well I love you... Aug 22, 2010
Sorry. Forgot to call you. We made it. Had fun with you! Love you! Aug 22, 2010
That's what happens when your a popular person that has a ton on their plate :) Aug 24, 2010
Picture this. The hunter with deer head and gun sitting on toilet. Of course dodo is in toilet. Hunter's pants down around his feet. Will have to get kacky colored pants to stuff to make bottom half of body so hunter camoflauge can be down Aug 24, 2010
not a good sign..shouldda been pondering what we just read..yup not a good sign Aug 24, 2010
dont think you will outgrow it..nope. Aug 24, 2010
well im 68 so think its a talent one is born with..u have an abundance of talent and creativity in the fun dpt. I luv how u cant help smiling no matter what happens to u..well i will say good night so we can stop texting and go to bed...goodnight.. Aug 24, 2010
Yes. Yes. And perhaps you could get some tse tse flies too... Aug 26, 2010
You are both awesome. You make me so proud :-) Aug 27, 2010
I just went to the bathroom and scared myself in the mirror. Ha. Sep 8, 2010
It's gonna be ok Sep 10, 2010
Im already here!!! Sep 10, 2010 5:14am
Got my CHINESE FOOD woo Sep 10, 2010
Yo Brookala! Missin you up in Dickson! Going to have to do sompthin soon girl. Guess I need to make my way down there so we can bless the rains down in Memphis. Sep 11, 2010
It's coffee and sanding time my little Smurfs Sep 14, 2010
Don't let him try and give you a shot of whiskey and amputate anything...
Well at least you have your legs, I guess... The South's gonna rise again! Dammit! Sep 17, 2010
Me so o jist emailed to to hrt Sep 20, 2010 2:05am
So any plans for your last hours as a 26 yr old :) Sep 20, 2010
27? Sep 21, 2010
Well sparky happy 27th! Sep 21, 2010
I couldn't wear it :'( seems im a dd and they dont come that big. There is no way these tube socks r dd's :-S Sep 21, 2010
You r way bigger! Probably cause i have to wad em up and stuff em in Sep 21, 2010
2 words...mule jump Sep 23, 2010
who? Tina? (when I asked guess who started an iv today and got it on the first try??)
Wow, I actually thought it was you, I was just trying to be funny...haha :)
I was JK, that I was JK :) Sep 24, 2010
Great news scratchy Sep 30, 2010
look out maggie i think i got something to say to u. its late september and i really should be back in school. Ok so ur not maggie..but its late september and u r going to class tonight...:) (to which I said, "You're so weird")
thats why u luv me. i think Sep 30, 2010
Gotta love mom & dad! Sep 30, 2010
Oh well too late...Sock monkeys are crashing Oct 1, 2010
I love you too much. Im sorry I was mean. Im just trying to keep my head up. THats all. Dont be sad about me. Im still here Oct 2, 2010
I'm sorry to stress you out about his but this is something I've dreamed about since I was a little boy and it's finally coming true. Oct 8, 2010
One tooth came in today again lookin mighty fine. She had it all shined up! Oct 8, 2010
Am so excited and I just can't hide it. Am about to lose control and I think I like it. Good morning good morning good morning!!! Oct 9, 2010
Too funny was just makin fun of those commercials. Forgot the two for price of one! :) Jul 17, 2010
Filled with anger right now Jul 19, 2010
Good Lord. You are busier than a one legged man in a butt kicking contest. Jul 21, 2010
Ahh...poor bee..now its gonna die...:) on a serious note that particular bee deserves to die...did u get the stinger out? Jul 24, 2010
Wana hike Thursday around 3? Hike to lake, jump in lake? Aug 2,2010
Know the feeling when i try to change channels with telephone. I don't have crazy schedule to blame..:P don't respond to this text..:)..:)
I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aug 3, 2010
Dude, there is the craziest delay. Let us know what u all want to do. Luv to see u saucy gals. Aug 4, 2010
Still comin' up tomorrow? Aug 5, 2010
Poor baby. You will make it. Just breathe and read some trashy material. Did I mention Cory is a gay hooker? Aug 5, 2010
Really cuz I just squeezed a little brown one in my pants Aug 6, 2010
My 2 precious girls Aug 7, 2010
We just went over a big dam reservoir Aug 8, 2010
My butt typed most of that Aug 12, 2010
I hate tunder! Oh noooo. Isth terrifying. Aug 13, 2010
I'm going to climb your anger wall one day and it will be glorious! Aug 14, 2010
Mmm...fizzy skittles...That's ur new nickname by the way :-)
1. Cuz ur spunky & fruity 2. u know ur a success whn u share names w/a candy! Aug 16, 2010
Be calm and have a cupcake. Aug 17, 2010
I need tissue Aug 18, 2010
Haha. Bad cat. But how will I claw your boobies big breasted lady? - DJ
I'm so depressed. First my nuts, now dis Aug 19, 2010
That melon is delicious! You should get you a big juicy slice! Aug 22, 2010
O calm down and get over it! Hehe
Well I love you... Aug 22, 2010
Sorry. Forgot to call you. We made it. Had fun with you! Love you! Aug 22, 2010
That's what happens when your a popular person that has a ton on their plate :) Aug 24, 2010
Picture this. The hunter with deer head and gun sitting on toilet. Of course dodo is in toilet. Hunter's pants down around his feet. Will have to get kacky colored pants to stuff to make bottom half of body so hunter camoflauge can be down Aug 24, 2010
not a good sign..shouldda been pondering what we just read..yup not a good sign Aug 24, 2010
dont think you will outgrow it..nope. Aug 24, 2010
well im 68 so think its a talent one is born with..u have an abundance of talent and creativity in the fun dpt. I luv how u cant help smiling no matter what happens to u..well i will say good night so we can stop texting and go to bed...goodnight.. Aug 24, 2010
Yes. Yes. And perhaps you could get some tse tse flies too... Aug 26, 2010
You are both awesome. You make me so proud :-) Aug 27, 2010
I just went to the bathroom and scared myself in the mirror. Ha. Sep 8, 2010
It's gonna be ok Sep 10, 2010
Im already here!!! Sep 10, 2010 5:14am
Got my CHINESE FOOD woo Sep 10, 2010
Yo Brookala! Missin you up in Dickson! Going to have to do sompthin soon girl. Guess I need to make my way down there so we can bless the rains down in Memphis. Sep 11, 2010
It's coffee and sanding time my little Smurfs Sep 14, 2010
Don't let him try and give you a shot of whiskey and amputate anything...
Well at least you have your legs, I guess... The South's gonna rise again! Dammit! Sep 17, 2010
Me so o jist emailed to to hrt Sep 20, 2010 2:05am
So any plans for your last hours as a 26 yr old :) Sep 20, 2010
27? Sep 21, 2010
Well sparky happy 27th! Sep 21, 2010
I couldn't wear it :'( seems im a dd and they dont come that big. There is no way these tube socks r dd's :-S Sep 21, 2010
You r way bigger! Probably cause i have to wad em up and stuff em in Sep 21, 2010
2 words...mule jump Sep 23, 2010
who? Tina? (when I asked guess who started an iv today and got it on the first try??)
Wow, I actually thought it was you, I was just trying to be funny...haha :)
I was JK, that I was JK :) Sep 24, 2010
Great news scratchy Sep 30, 2010
look out maggie i think i got something to say to u. its late september and i really should be back in school. Ok so ur not maggie..but its late september and u r going to class tonight...:) (to which I said, "You're so weird")
thats why u luv me. i think Sep 30, 2010
Gotta love mom & dad! Sep 30, 2010
Oh well too late...Sock monkeys are crashing Oct 1, 2010
I love you too much. Im sorry I was mean. Im just trying to keep my head up. THats all. Dont be sad about me. Im still here Oct 2, 2010
I'm sorry to stress you out about his but this is something I've dreamed about since I was a little boy and it's finally coming true. Oct 8, 2010
One tooth came in today again lookin mighty fine. She had it all shined up! Oct 8, 2010
Am so excited and I just can't hide it. Am about to lose control and I think I like it. Good morning good morning good morning!!! Oct 9, 2010
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
In The Ghetto
It's one of those fun shuffle your iPod games. Everybody should know I'm a sucker for these. Here goes..
1. IF SOMEONE SAYS, “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Jo Meri Rooh Ko (Well, that's about right)
2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Flowers In The Windows
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Ignorance (oh dear, but mostly true! HA)
4. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Pistola (um, once again, oh dear)
5. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Southern Girl (yee haw)
6. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Incomplete
7. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Dangerous
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Heaven's Dead
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Savior
10. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Rock Steady
11. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Broken (um, well not so much)
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
If You Can't Slow Down
13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Love Hurts
14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Morningstar
15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Nobody Puts Baby In the Corner (or in the ground apparently)
16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The Terrible Secret (pole dancing..I'llllll never telllll)
17. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Open Book
18. WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
T'es beau, tu sais
19. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Beautiful Day (Well at least I have that..)
20. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Keep Feeling Fascination (That'll get ya every time)
21. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Timing is Reason
22. WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Number Five With A Bullet
23. WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Pilgrim(That doesn't sound hopeful)
24. WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Maybe(that's actually a good one!)
25. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Don't Leave Home(Well looks like mom and daddy do! Yeah I'm 50 and live at home! You got a problem with that punk??!!)
26. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I Only Have Eyes For You (crap)
27. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Heartbreaker
28. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
In the Ghetto
1. IF SOMEONE SAYS, “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Jo Meri Rooh Ko (Well, that's about right)
2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Flowers In The Windows
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Ignorance (oh dear, but mostly true! HA)
4. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Pistola (um, once again, oh dear)
5. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Southern Girl (yee haw)
6. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Incomplete
7. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Dangerous
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Heaven's Dead
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Savior
10. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Rock Steady
11. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Broken (um, well not so much)
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
If You Can't Slow Down
13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Love Hurts
14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Morningstar
15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Nobody Puts Baby In the Corner (or in the ground apparently)
16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The Terrible Secret (pole dancing..I'llllll never telllll)
17. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Open Book
18. WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
T'es beau, tu sais
19. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Beautiful Day (Well at least I have that..)
20. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Keep Feeling Fascination (That'll get ya every time)
21. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Timing is Reason
22. WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Number Five With A Bullet
23. WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Pilgrim(That doesn't sound hopeful)
24. WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Maybe(that's actually a good one!)
25. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Don't Leave Home(Well looks like mom and daddy do! Yeah I'm 50 and live at home! You got a problem with that punk??!!)
26. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I Only Have Eyes For You (crap)
27. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Heartbreaker
28. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
In the Ghetto
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